rest is so hard to come by these days.
no, I’m not talking about sleep.
I’m talking about moments where my brain is not running a million thoughts
where I’m not calculating how much sleep I’m gonna get or how many more minutes before I have to leave the house
where I am not sleeping on the floor because I’m too tired to change out of outside clothes
where I’m not desperately trying to recall the never-ending to-do lists
but where I just lie in bed
heart palpitating ba-dup, ba-dup, second by second
No to-do lists
No engagements to attend
No promises to keep.
I am just so tired.